Annoyed, pissed off, Thoughts of my so called life...

Well its been a few interesting situations I have been in lately... People that I have met, People that I know and other shit that's just going on that's getting to me, and at the same time I just dust it off but it eats me inside at times... Example... I am not every one's savior... Ok if you need to be saved please go to a church and pray or talk to your local psychiatrist or something because this bullshit must stop or else one day the world is going to hate me... And what I mean by the world is every single person that has ever known me. May they be related to me or not they will know my wrath of Pissed off... All I am asking for is a few simple rules.. First, I will help you out but fucking-a how about you take a step out of your small insect world of problems and look at me for a second and see if I need some help or something like that, and IM not talking about talking or shit like that I mean other stuff... ( FIGURE IT OUT ASSHOLES!!!) Second, Instead of "my" or your relation ship drama bullshit how about hooking me up once and a wile and no, I just don't want any ho because if I did I would pick up my cell and call a few, how about a nice girl that has some sense of life and is good looking and actually wants something... Third and MOST IMPORTANT, I am not your bitch to be buying stuff and shit... All the crap I do like when I go out, EX: pay for entrance or food or w/e.. Hey its my money ok.. I am a fucking Finance wiz and I take my own money and make it work for me. So I make money, but I figure it for myself not tom, dick, and Jane... I do not like to pay for leeches.. I don't fucking care anymore who I hurt by this comment if you think it applies to your self then take offence or not I don't give a fuck.. GOT IT!... I am a independent person who is not employed, goes to school full time so I can make something out of myself, and I pay for my own stuff with my own money. I refuse to ask my mother who I know would be like ok no problem... But IM not like that, I pay for my own: Gas, Food, Drinks, entrance to Places, Dates, Ect... Here's what I ask myself almost 90% of the time when I go to bed, When the fuck is it going to be my turn... My time to be happy... You know when was the last time I was actually happy... Lets see, oh that's right I don't fucking remember its been that long... If I cant remember that means its been more than 4 years or so... I think little by little IM going to become a selfish person and just not give a fuck about anyone, think of myself first then possibly conceder other people into what IM doing or thinking... Yeah that sounds good because IM not getting shit out of this situation right now.. Maybe I should also speak my mind more often and tell people what I really think of them... Hey it sounds like a plan... Fuck it IM going to bed...

LILMAN X

Redundant thoughts of Females

Well so I finally got some sleep after like 48hrs of no sleep or if not it was more... I feel super well rested and relaxed... So today is Friday and I have no homework, well I do but I cant do it here so I will have to wait until Monday to do it :) yeah I know I like to put it off as much as I can... So yeah... Yesterday was just an average day, school, chilled, then after that Radio lollipop then I wanted to go see some girl that I like but she was not at her work... Blast! w/e what can I do... I got all dressed out and smelling all good of cool water and all in vain for nothing... Well I mean w/e it was a small toss into the lake that I totally missed but w/e... So today I don't know what IM going to do yet.. My thoughts are still or goal is to go see this girl but I don't want to seem like am all jocking her but I am sorta but w/e.. GRRR damm redundant thoughts of girls... Well I want to do something productive today so I will see what's going to go down today... (HOPING!!!) I will see some one, but we will see.. I might just chill with some friends and that's about it...

LILMAN X

Make this quick so I can sleep

Ok... Its Thursday... I haven't slept since about 7am WEDNESDAY!!! I am extremely tired.. I don't know what the hell has kept me up all this time but... The fuel is running on extreme empty at this current time... I will write 2marrow

LILMAN X ( SLEEPY )

Girls, The other Sex...

I think IM going to just write about girls and bitch and complain about them in this entry... So if you don't want to know my thoughts, Stop reading... I've been observing a lot lately girls or females or Women, w/e you want to call them... I have been seeing that some due tend to be easy going and some how end up just giving in to temptation and they also like to be kinda pushed around but also some don't... You cant categorize them at all because every single one is different or acts differently or is total opposite of the others that you know... Example: I know this girl, ok she easy going, none girlyish but yet some how is very attractive and some how gets the point across, The other one Subject 2 Is girlyish and also gets the same point across of getting a mate, or the opposite sex... My argument is how can they do this to us guys, Do they have some secret sense that tells them something or is it built in like instinct... Another observation is some are attracted to total assholes, and some like nice guys but some also at the same time like the nice guys but get the assholes so the niceguys loose some times so I don't get the direction they want to go... I would figure if I wanted a stable or sensible relationship I would go after the nice guy with a good head on his shoulder... Why would some one look for trouble or at least problems... Are they board of life that they would like to have issues and problems to make it more exciting? Or maybe they think they can change the person and help them out? I don't get this... Now the subject of the sex or sexual revolution... I will be honest... Its been some time since I have done the dirty if you get what I mean.. But its not like I need it often or crave it... I mean I do but there are some people that just cant go with out that? Why I don't get this... Or I also don't get the grand sexual craze or just why, why the need all the time or is it me that I don't get it all the time that I don't see the point of view other people have... Maybe if I was on that " sexual" revolution crase I would see the point from another perspective... I wonder who actually enjoys sex more, the guy or the girl? Maybe this is something I should put into study or at least find out. I admit I am not an expert at all in this subject, I also don't want to be but if the opportunity comes around I don't see why not... Well maybe so or maybe not... IM actually confused about this subject when it comes to myself, something tells me yes but at the same time I also don't want to.... Maybe an answer to this would be to figure out what a girl wants... I mean Every one has a different taste or flavor or w/e but there has to be a base model or something... I personally think I try too hard sometimes but also I guess I have to, may be I don't but I feel the need I do sometimes and so do a lot of other guys.. All I know is that IM extremely simple... I ask the following: Good personality, A some what good head on her shoulders and yes some kind of body to match also, and cares about me... That's it... Simple... Easy... Girls if you read this please Give me some input I would like to add it to my study of the other sex...

LILMAN X

What direction am I going now...

Well so w/e its another day in the life of me... So yeah today was fun I did a lot of stuff I was hanging with chrissy and chilled with some friends of her and i was happy because i got to see katie, I whent to Honda Monday and I showed off my new air intake and they were impressed by it and they gave me my props for it. Well so the fun is over... Now I start class but IM not sure what class I have because this morning I saw I had math and access and now it shows I only have access and they took out math so IM not sure what I have 2marrow... I know I have to show up and go to room 260 at 8 am so w/e... I will see what happends... Eh im sick of this IM going no were b/s because I want something I know that is steady... w/e now that school is starting I will be able to organize my schedule and figure out what IM going to when, with who, what IM going to do and ect... Anyways IM sleepy... School is early and I need sleep...

LILMANX

Tap, Pound, Bang, BOOM!, Squeeze, Explotion, suffocation, The Plague

Ok... I feel sick... Yeah I have the commen Plague, its called a cold, but no I don't get it like every tom dick and Jane, no I get the shit that almost kills you... Its all up in my nose, and my ears are well stuffed like a backed up pipe, I keep spitting out some green shit and that's not the only green comming out of me to give you some details... Yeah so its sick, who the hell do you think has to deal with this crap... You? I have to see it almost every 15 mins if not more often... So yeah w/e... IM sick with a cold and I feel like shit... If anyone has wondered why they haven't heard from me its because IM in bed with every medication from dayquill to musonex to you name it trying to get rid of this crap.. Ok I think I wrote so you all get the point... Good night and I will be back when this blasted Plague crap goes away!

LILMAN X

2006 and counting... New, the old and updates

Well I didn't bother to post anything in December, why well I don't know I didn't feel like wrtieing it was a shitty month it sucked, umm I don't know I just didn't write.. Got a problem..! Yeah thought so, anyways now its the new year and its Jan 2 and its like 8am, I cant sleep and I think I sleep only like one hr last night I don't know why but ive been having major brain stew, damm greenday... They must of known about me when they wrote that song, except I don't need the cocaine IM just naturally like that all awake and fried and stuff... So yeah life is, alright I guess, I have my civic, I just ordered a JDM air intake on it so I gain HP and save on gas... dammm oil company's, DIE!.. >_< anyways so yeah thats dont ive been doing a lot of hanging out not really party but just chill which is cool and i love to do that but im feeling the party oh hot girl over there let me go dance and have some fun with her stuff... you know.... so lets see my plans for 06, stay out of the damm hospital for one because i cant do this crap anymore i hate it because everything is put on hold when i go in and im suffering with school really bad so i have to get my crap togeather and my body need to start acting right and stop this freaak out b/s and str8en up... i guess one of the things i told my self is i tryed veary hard in 05 to find a girl and im like screw it if it comes so be it because im sick and tierd of trying, playing the game, then at the end getting screwd or i fail, so im just going to let it rid, my wing man or the capten i should say agrees with me and i think were going to play it the same way... I really would like a girl and money and pimp out my civic to the max but i cant have them all... so im going to work on the civic i guess ^_^ Oh yeah and im also going to find some little part time to make some money so i can splerg and save and w/e... i mean my accets are just fine but still i would like to aquier some stuff thsta not on my budget... Well we will see what happends and we will see when i wrtie onece more.... if i have the time...

LILMAN X >_<