Another day passed by

A void; A waste; Another day has come and gone and yet nothing done, nothing acomplished, and a void still growing as the days pass by... Empty, no girl or close friends i can hang out with or do somthing... nothing done.... it will be sunday when i wake up and a new day so i will acomplish somthing. I will not just sit in my room in sorrow or pitty for my self of all the losses i have sufferd. I will start by my room leading out twards my social life, I will Rearrang my room by getting rid of old stuff i dont use or have no use for... Next week is a diffrent week for me i will take no ones crap or let no one stand in my way of my social life... If they choose to confront me i will simply confront them, alone or not i dont care i will do what is needed to move on. Maybe after all i did acomplish somthing today... I made up my mind to take no ones shit or stupidity and to move on and change my life 360 degrees from how i have lived it before..

LILMAN X

hate, sadness, alone and angry...

Well i dont know exactly what to say... right now at the moment i am kind of pissed off but not becasue i know the state of mind of this indavidual... so i cant really blame them but still it was stupid move and a big mistake... Some times i just wish i could rase my hand wish for somthing and it would happen... Well we all know no one has this abilitty so i must resort to other tactiks. Times like this i am alone... i have no one i can trust or truly tell how i feel, only becasue either they are connected to someone i know or dislike or someone i just know that has a big mouth or i just dont have faith in them... seems like i have no faith in anyone lately... i dont know why or a reson for this but i just feel like it... I just need my best friend here so he can just tell me i got your back or somthing like that...i guess the only one i can trust is terrell.. i just wish he was here.. seems to me times like this i need him the most and well i guess i am alone... Well ya i know i have other friends but still i dont have that trust or connection like i have with him... Some times im actualy scared with out him ... i felt safe, protected, like if some was guarding my back all the time... Now i feel like i have to watch my back watch were i go, what i do... I miss most just hanging out with him or like the times we just chilled for the hell of it at U.M. I also have a big void in my life, not only of my best-friend but of a girl... a girl to care for me, love me, and share all the feelings we would have in a relationship.. mostly i write to clear my mind, to ease my thoughts all sqwoshed up in my head.. writing i have found to be a way i vent all my thoughts that are all stored up in my head, i have over 1000 thoughts, feelings, hopes, fears, and emotions that i just dont write about because i dont want the world to know. What i write is what i feel. I think the best is to write out what you feel and need to get out but you have no one to tell...

LILMAN X

Little Ninjas {>_<} / Mission inposible (>_<)

What can i say but (LITTLE NINJAS....) {>_<} Well i had a fun night, i thought it actualy was going to be the worst and most shitty ass night in the world, but when the rain stoped and the street got drained of all its water, it was an awsome night. The day started out with it raining and raining and so on. I knew i had to go to Gigi's party and i wouldent miss it, but the stupid rain did not stop and the damm streets where flooded... I was thinking of how i would get to her party. I know it started at 7P.M. but how was i going to get there with all the rain and my low car in flooded streets? Well i just had to wait, so i did and by the time it all stoped and the streets where dry it was about 10P.M. Well it was late but i still wanted to go but i hate to drive at night alone... So i called for my nabore ( we can call him AGENT A ) agent A. Well he came over but he told me his grandmother told him to be home at 1A.M (she didnt know he was going out with me becase he didnt tell her) So we had to play like little ninjas and get in my car and take it out with out her knowning... So we did and whent to the party and had a grate time and all the time i was looking at my clock to make sure we had time to drive from the party to my house and stash the car where it was... Well it all worked out becase Gigi had to close the place she had the party at around 12:30... Well so after that i quickly whent to a gass station to vacume all the stupid water that was inside my car and hall ass to my house on time... Well the vacuming took a little too long but i hat 10 mins to get to my house... Lets just say i did about 60 on coral way... As we aproched my house i turned off my lights on the car and parked it just like befor wile agent A was inside changeing back to his cloths that he had on befor... Perfect operation done by the little ninjas.. {>_<} (i owe thanks to the Big Black aka negro susio Ninja for teaching me the way of the Little ninjas)

BOO! HALOWEEN!

What a day... well i made a costume and it was an awsome one. i took the stuff that i got from that small lil shop and put it togeather and it looked awsome, soon i will post pictures of it on my pic site.... well basicly it was me car her hubby and 2 sexy fine ass girls from nyc that came to miami for a day becase the next day they had a cruse... Since they where in miami they called up caros hubby and wanted to find out what was cracking that night so we took them with us... well south beach was a blast walked and danced drank and all that you would do and more then after that it was to the grove and that was fun too... basicly long day of partying. It took me most of the day to make my costume.. BUT IT WAS WORTH IT..!!