Sucky rain blues / Rachel's party

Damm what was up with people today, its like every one was in a bad mood and pissed off and tierd or in some other mood besides happy or hyper... i noteced this was only happening after it rained .... as soon as it started to rain i saw all kinds of attitudes... Even as i was driving i saw people angry in there cars and acidents on the rode... What the hell is wrong with every one today... In radio lollipop people where all in crappy moods, its our job to be happy, peppy, hyper and act all crazy... why all of a sudden where we all in a crappy mood?.... w/e I BLAME IT ALL ON THE RAIN !

Well rachel's party was awsome... what a good time i had there... Well it was me luis 4 of her Kappa girls and a few others... umm well i do have to say the first thing that i had my eye on was rachel lil sis... wow shes so cute, shes like the shy quiet stand alone type. Or at least that night she was... i was hopeing she would dance when we all got up and danced at benigens... Rachel loved her gift card that i got her... now she can buy all the cool stuff she wants at hot topic... after we all did the dinner thing it was back to the aprt... the movie of choice was some weard 70s halloween movie ... umm didnt like it but we all did have jello shots so that was cool... i had 3 :0)

LILMAN X

Im back...!

Ok so its been forever since i have written and done some blogging... well its not my fult ... its all the stupid assholes in this world's fult. Well let me tell ya why. The day after the last time i wrote somthing happend with a friend of mine Mr k we will call him... his brother, Mr B; my friend got out of controll and started to have a fit... well story gos mr B got real pissed off for some reason at his mother and then hit his brother mr K and just started hell in his house... He broke down the door and took his mothers car when she didnt notice that night and i got a call from Mr K the next day asking me if i knew where his brother was, MR B. well i didnt know where he was or actualy what the hell was going on, so i whent over to his house to see what was going on because i know what has happend in the past with theese people befor... so i go over and i learn that caused hell and they are looking for the car so i thought i would help by talkin to mr b's girl and tell her what i heard and what her story is... so i did and w/e on thing to the other and the car showed up with out mr B in it but it was his friend who brought back the car so... w/e i whent out with Mr K so i could take his mind off of what had just happend and let his mother rest well we where out late and w/e it was all good so then i came home and thought nothing of what happend... next day i got up did some things around the house and had to go to my car to get somthing and i noticed the door was kinda open and then i get closer and i see my glass is smashed both doors are open and the bag i had inside is gone... in that bag i had a PS2 and 2 of my games ... dot-hack and my fav of all final fantasy 10, along with 2 controllers and every thing you need for the ps2 was in that bag... i look in my trunk and they also took my amp... i didnt know to cry yell or scream and pull out my hairs.. i was going insane or syco i didnt know what to do... i started to think how, why, who, when... so then i was like it had to be MR B becase i know from the past when i used to hang out with him the crazy sh*t he would do. Well i thought and still have my suspitions it was him or some one who he told to do it... well my inshurence covers nothing... PS2, 800 watt amp ... all gone to whom ever did it ... but like i sed at the begining ... Im back, i got a 850 watt amp that im making thick 1/4 steel brakets so they cant take them and mounting for the speakers and all ... let them assholes try now! bring a Plasma cutter or try to take my car wich now has a kill switch to take my sh*t now ... hell ya im one pissed off mother fu*ker that put in some crazy sh*t that cannot be taken! Now all i have to do is fix my winshild and rear window and im cool and cruzing...

LILMAN X

My thoughts for the past 2days...

Ok for the last 2days eather by infulence or by encounters of my own i have been thinking about relationships, as in being in love or haveing a girl friend... For exsample their is a girl i know .. lets call her mis X well she has a b/f that she cares about and he cares about her, but mis X also is atractid to another man. now the other day she was asking me what she should do and the guy shes atractid to has a girl of his own to, so basicly 2 people are attracted to eachother but they are both in a relationship that are conmfterble but have doubts about the people they are with. Ok i understand that your attractid to some one else its only natural, but that dusent mean leave what you have, people think thats what you should do, or maybe it means your not fulfilld with what you have? I don't know what the right thing to do would be. I do know how i would want to be treated and how i would treat my girl.. I would show her how to be loved, take her out to dinner, or just stay home and watch a move just the two of us, make dinner at home, cuddle hold eachother closely, kiss and get the feeling of caring for the person. Afection is the one thig i want the most. Its funny how your friends tell you to go and screw some girl you never met, but when they are in a relationship and you tell them that there getting sex when there partner comes over they get insulted... why ? Is it because now they care about that person, and its just not some one night stand? Heres another one i always wonder about. Why is it that a person stays in a relationship when it is abusive. For example, they cheat on you; or they verbaly abuse of you, just plan treat you like sh*t. Why ? What is it that keeps them going back to that person, are they stupid ? Maybe they don't know what it is to be with another person that treats them good. Maybe they are afrade that they wont find another person? Maybe they are masokist and like it... who knows what it is, I do hope when the time comes i can keep that person and show that girl that i care for her and maybe she will care for me the same way too.

LILMAN X

Long day...

What a long long day.... didnt get up too early but it was like 11 more or less so then after that i picked up brian at 3 and took him to do some stuff and after that i came home burnt some cd's and then kariokie, oh ya and befor kariokie i talked to the girl that i care about so so much call her mis X. shes far far away but eventualy i will see her and hopefuly somthing will happen between us (wishfule thinking) but i dont know that so only time will tell. I really do like her alot and i haved since the first time i met her, ironicly she had a B/f at the time but he was far away and she was close to me untill she moved far away.... I SWEAR I WILL GIVE IT MY ALL WHEN I SEE HER NEXT TIME. Love is hard to find and i need some type of it in my life. I feel empty with out it. Who knows whats going to happen, i think im just going to lay low... 2marrow i have a super long day... Screw it who would care for me anyways... Love... STANDS FOR (LONLY OF VALUE EMOTIONS) SCREW IT ... i think i will be mr dick head ass from now on... :)

LILMAN X

Slow, fun,boreing but good and diffrint day

Eh w/e it was a good day after all.. So it was another rainy day in miami ... yuck i hate the rain... Oh the leek that i thought i fixed in my car is still there, found out the hard way too. I needed somthing from my car so when i opend the door i saw it was all foged up inside and i wonderd why, so when i look in the back seat i see this huge puddle of water just sitting there. "Wonderfule" i thought, so got the mop cloth and started to take the water out, took a wile but i did it. So then i was with nothing to do because the Direct Tv gos out when it rains so i had to do somthing, my nefuew left me his pygme rabbit to take care of for a week. So i picked him up and played with him for a wile and waited for the rain to stop. So it stoped agen and agen the stupid car inside was flooded.. YAY mop time... cleand it up and after that watched tv and waited till it was time to go to kariokie, so i did... Well the regulars came as alway rolly, brian, nick, kevin AKA (holla), and the others. I was like oh hell do a new song, oh ya another thing that crazy girl was there agen so i was like ok a song for her, i didnt know what but something evil... I picked "she f*cking hates me by puddle of mud... perfect, but she left oh well did the song anyways and then the others, nookie and faith. After that they guys wanted to head to the starlight diner... I had no clue where that was at so i told then i was going to follow them, well the car i was following was going so fast that i hit 90 at one point that i couldent keep up and lost them.. so i called rolly and he told me more or less, found the place and chilled there playing some trivia game till about 3 then i had to go home, i was super sleepy. Well i got home and i guess got my second energy boost especaly when i saw marian's IM on the screen... I was like dammit i can't belive i just missed her... I really like her alot even if she is super far away, i don't care... the only thing that worrys me is if she likes me in return, who knows if she has some guy where she is or if im not her type. You know i may be a guy but i have my insecure times to worrying about stuff like this, i guess its human or normal, im sure most of the guys would be like " oh stop being a pu*sy and just bang her" or "get layed with some chick or any chick"... I'm not like that at all, i can't just f*ck any girl or just do anything with out thinking first. I am the type that i actualy have to feel somthing for a girl or like her and know somthing about her, I have to love the girl in some way. i guess thats why im not like the rest of them that show up with a diffrent girl every week or meet a new one, some atraction has to be there. I am not a horny oh ya lets screw right now or jump into this right now type. Right now the girl i would like to date would be her but shes million miles away and i cant do a damm thing about it. unless she comes to miami, all i can do is wonder and hope for the best. I bet that all the peeps that are like oh ya time to get some are going to be like eather the kind that get married and divorce later, or are going to be lonly and tierd of not truely loveing some one.. i guess im more mature than i act but hey when in rome wear a toga... :)

LILMAN X

P.S. I'm going to write an email telling her how much i miss her and want her to come to miami and whats the first thing im going to do when she gets here, IN SPANISH!!!