A week has passed... Scars

Well so its been a crazy hecktic week-last week and this week is starting iffy, first of all i dont feel well at all, but i am doing my best to do what i have to do. Last week was crazy at work.. lots of stuff happend, i almost erased the stupid computer that has all the info that we copy to all the computers in the school because of my " CO- WORKER'" but w/e it sliped her mind and my boss didnt get that pissed off, but it can be fixed, well the weekend was good sorta, i wanted to do alot like get the lights that me and Dio got at the junk-yard but of course nothing happends like it should so that didn't happen at all... instead we just did an oil change on his truck and whent to the grove to fat-tuesdays and we were supposed to go to Los-olas and have fun but nooooo!!! We all gatherd up way to late to drive 1 hr out of miami to go to broward. Well fat-tuesdays was fun sorta because Dio saw some people he know and they were there chilling with a bunch of girls so w/e i got my fair share of danceing and grinding in with them... The only bad part was that he kept bitching and bitching like a wineing little punk about how he made reservations at rusty pellican and this girl didnt call him back and he didnt get her why she didnt call him and bla bla bla... so i did a simple solution... >_< i got him nice and trashed :) ... and also set him up with the girl who knew how to dance, the dirtyiset.. lol ... besides that nothing really much happend this weekend... oh friday i was russhing like a loonatic to go see my friend in her prom dress.. she looked awsome and i was so proud of her.... she didnt take a date so i didnt have to worry about the after prom factor... (if you dont know what the after prom factor is use your imagination) I havent been online in such a long time i havent had the time or anything... i miss talking to my online friends and most of all roxy... hope she is doing ok... well hopfuly i will be online soon... as soon as i get some free time to work on my pc... Well back to work...

LILMAN X

This song is like my new theam...

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause I channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is...

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shoulda' never come around
Why don't you just go home? '
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

I took her out It was a friday night... CRAZY WEEKEND...

So yeah what a weekend i had, i think i havent gone partying like that in a long time... Thursday Friday and Sat... I think the people at phat Tuesday's know me by now... Oh small correction on my priviouse blogg The girls i listed is by order, the numbers dont mean the amount of girls but in the order i have met them... Ok back to the weekend story... Well so basicly it was 3 str8 days of party after party after party... I whent with Dio and the tall skinny venesolano out to Fat Tuedays ... It was so awsome i had so much fun... i havent had that much fun in a long time.... I will write more later on in the week about it...

LILMAN X

What a long Week...

Well its been about a week since i have last wrote, and it sure has been hecktic... Work has been harsh... i sure havent been feeling 100% or even like 90% but everyone that knows me i always look 100% even when i feel like 40% power of what i should be... Well today was crazy and last night was awsome too... i was chilling with my new homie Dio and we decited to go to Fat-tuesdays, bar/clubish chill place, and it was good i met 2 girls one from Germany and the other from Oman, somewhere way the hell out in the middle east accourding to her, go figure, last time i was at a club or someplace like it i met this girl that lives exactly on the other side of the world... wonder who it is...? >_< how i would love to hang out with this girl and get to know her but they all seem to just live on oppiset sides of the world... just my luck... lets see a small list of girls that i have met that don't live im miami; 1 Girl from tennessee, 2 Girl from panama, 3. girl from colombia, 4. girl from peru, 5. girl from lebanon, now add german girl and the other one from way out there and lets not forget the semi-crazy girl i knew from canada( who i dont speak to) so yeah... not one from miami or at least the same state... Good greef well screw it, i guess other cultures like this El cubano... Tonight i am going out agen even if i do or dont feel good so who knows what a crazy night this will be... hey maybe i will go way east and maybe japan or china? i doubt it but hey who knows... well Eat, Iorn cloths, shower, shave, and get dressed all pimped out to go out tonight...

LILMAN X

Roxy, hope to see you soon sorry i havent been online its been
CARAZY

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!... anotherday .... weekend over

BLAST!... Its sunday and the weekend is almost over... Well it was good weekend so far, kinda busy but awsome... Friday was a casual chill day at my house mostly but it was relaxing, Sat was awsome i did alot of stuff on Sat. My morning started off with a radio lollipop semi-anual training wich was awsome then after that i whent to a picnic which my school had for everyone. It was fun but no big deal because the only people i chilled was a few peeps i knew from school and that was about it... After that i was hanging with Dio and we were at some chicks house and we were helping her move in to some new house there so we played Mr. fix it guys ...AKA (bitchies) and did what handy house work was needed... after that i whent to target to get my mom her card for mothers day and after that i was supposed to go to a club with Dio but i was so tierd from doing the handy bitch job that i was im not going to stay out late.... Well so i call Dio and hes like everyone is tierd so forget it im staying home, so i meet up with Terrell and Luis at BK and chill for a bit then i bounced to jj's house to drop off the network cable i made him and to have him come with me a sec to Dio's house to pick up some blackbarrys we need to hack and j, julian, and tiffany end up going with us... well so this quick chill with the crew lasted up to about 4am more or less, we ended up looking for people to race in j's car and eating shit blasting some fire crackers and of course everyone that knows me knows what happends when alex is sleep deprived... ( I GO CRAZY) so as we are eating shit tossing fire crackers out the window wile driving i hang out the window with julian hanging on to my paints and im screeming to people we pass or who ever on the stree.... ( " Hey Im Coco Loco man, you dont know me, im crazy, my moms afraid of me... and so is my dog man" with a wierd mexican phyco acent) so yeah that was the crazy Sat i had yesterday... I got up today at... 12 and now i am on my way to my grandmothers house and i have to go to terrells house And later, get my power locks and windows kit...so this should be a rather... more relaxed day.... i hope... hell who knows....

LILMANX X

Roxy please stay safe and becarful... i worrie about you alot...
sorry i missed you online, but well you can tell why...
miss ya

Rain...semi-kinda better sick....

Well so i didn't go to school today at all, actualy i called in sick and stayed home... i had no choice, since now im all into school hard core and i also have a job and i am making mad money i wanted to go but i felt too shitty to go... so i slept most of the day untill about 3 when i got up and decited to go online for most of the day, kinda hopeing some one would go on... but oh well it was cut short anyways because around 5 a nasty thunderstorm came and i didnt want my electronics to fry so i turned everything off, and tryed to sleep... everyone who knows me, knows i hate thunder since i was kinda struck by lightning and my fear of electricity due to it being attracted to me... go figure, i cant get a woman but electricity loves me...>_<>_< ..... anyways..... i have this song stuck in my head all day long... its by the killers, its called Mr. Brightside... Love the lyrics i want the album... i will aquier it... soon... Well its getting late and im going to bed... School and work... then the weekend... WOOT!

LILMAN X

The Killers - Mr. Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

1x repeat

I never...I never...I never...

I'm not sick, but I'm not well part 2

Im sick, but i know at least i can fight it, a simple but anoying cold is what i have... I hate being all stuffy... I was so happy to check my email today in class, i got cards from roxy... it made my day to see she sent me somthing... i miss talking to her online... i want nothing more than to fic my stupid pc and be online 24/7... its been a hell of a bitch to get online in the last few weeks since my pc is down and i dont want to use my parents since they keep telling me to fix mines... its just that the studpid western-digital HD i have i cant do anything untill that guy gives it back to me and i can RMA it so i can get a new one and rebuild my PC Empier..... well im feeling crappy so i am going to take something and go to bed early... i will get rid of this damm cold... i will write more 2marrow if class is slow...

LILMAN X

Roxy i miss you but i will find a way to talk
to you online some how soon...

I'm not sick, but I'm not well

im sick