Its theat time or the yr agen when people come for the holidays and x-mas and stuff but even still it times like this that i miss my best friend the most. i remeber last yr i would ask him to come with me on stuff i would have to do around toen. i deepy miss him and i feel a void in my life. My other betrated fried friend i also miss. some times i think back on stuff we used to do, now my life has changed and i cant afford to have another problem to help. i have meany things this comming yr that i must solve befor i can go back and fix my past. I sometimes withs i still was in the past like for example 2001 or 2002 even if most of 02 i was in the hospital, i still had my group, my crew, my truest friends wich i could ask anything. I would wish for myself come next yr that at least i can go back to some way or matter of how it used to be but this i do not know when, My past was the best but also the worst. It was like a bad dream that i was awake but was also asleep. now that i have the bigest problem on my sholders i have awakend and now i must wake up from this dream and face the real world. Its funny how as time whent by my health was getting better but my soclal life seems to be getting worse, its kind of like i had bad to horribale health and perfect friends and grate socal enviroment and now its like the tables have turned. now im healthy but lonley. its like what is the point? why now give me the feeling good when i have no one to share it with? Its like this anime that T showed me once and now i am hooked on because its so scary its so much like real life called cowboy bebop. BANG!
LILMAN X
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