Changes, good, bad, and lots has happened...

Well its been a week since I wrote, but I have a good excuse this time... Right after I wrote last weeks blogg, I found out the hard way my car is dead... My lovely 1988 Toyota corolla died and I was soo sad because I know its old and kinda falling apart but I loved that car... She was so good to me... I miss her so much... Some good times I had in that car... But since she has passed away and is no longer working I had to get a new car... My current new but used car is a Red 97 Civic EX... Its awesome... And looks like new... I mean no kidding this car is in excellent condition because everything works, yeah its got a few broken things, but super minor and mostly cosmetic so its easily fixable... Also its a civic, what don't they cell for that car for real... I posted the pictures on my myspace so everyone can see, I want to know what people think about it... IM going to take some real good pictures of it soon because it was like the second day I had it when I took the pictures I posted and it was a rush thing... I know my friend's have told me they like my car so that's awesome because I car what they think well some times... Now I just have to find insurance and that's it IM done... 2marrow IM transferring the tag so we will see how that goes.... Well I will keep you informed... IM going to bed... Night...

LILMAN X

Bite me bitches I have been a busy man.. Lets play catch up!

Well so its been a month or so since I have written in this thing and I have done a lot and a lot has happened... Well lets see what I can remember... I have been partying like there's no 2marrow which is they way I like to think of life... And it has been super crazy because I have been trying to balance my friends from my social friends and my mind has been going crazy trying to please people all the damm time but hey... I am super man or at least I try to be and I solve every ones problems and I do get everything done at w/e it costs me, maybe because I am a nice guy or I just like to drive my self crazy... I was actually in the hospital since about from this past Sunday to Tuesday because me, as always never take care of my self at all and I was going down hill slowly but hey I stayed out a good bit... I did my best I guess you could say I haven't been in there since June so it was all good... Oh yeah big news... I no longer go to MCH (Miami children's hospital) anymore because, last time or I should say this time I tried to go in they rejected me and told me I was too old and that they made exceptions for me and that I must go to an adult hospital... So I was sick, felt like shit and I couldn't go to mch and my choices were go to doctors hospital or Southmiami... I was like hellz no I don't want any of them, so I got out AMA (against medical advice) and came home, called my doctor at Jackson and explained to him about what happened and man that guy was super cool about it... He hooked me up with a privet room at Jackson and grate doctors this time... I don't like Jackson at all, the staff sucks, the rooms ar horrible and the rest well I shouldn't say because I might get killed for it if I truly say what I feel but w/e... I would love to stay with him if possible because he is one of the best doctors I have had ever and he attends to me super fast because he knows when I call its bad... But I don't think I can do that... My ideal setting would be... Take my surgeon Dr. Wineburger, take Dr. Madanick My GI, Take Dr. Junquiera My general and best damm doctor I've ever had and keep them all with me, oh yeah and the transplant people too... But I cant I have to now get a new Primary general and a new GI doctor... This sucks but IM going to one of the best hospitals in Miami Baptist Hospital.. All my hospital buddies recommend it to me and think I should go there because they are super nice and will treat me like they did at mch or even better... So who knows... I hope it will all work out... IM sure it will... If not I will make it work... Well IM tired and I think I have some stuff to do so I will try to write I know some one reads this but I will post more often...

LILMAN X

Catch up time... Sleep? Board but not indifferent...

Well so its super late as hell.. I mean its like almost 5AM and I don't know why I cant sleep... Maybe, because I took a stupid nap during the day and I cant sleep now... Friday was awesome... Lala's b-day was the shit... SOHO lounge was awesome, Pilar, Lala, Fred, Carmen, Jenny, Amanda, and like 4 other people were all there... Wow SOHO has changed since I was there last time.. I haven't been there in hella long time... I like the way it looks now... Simple... My favorite thing is the 80's room... Old school hip hop and freestyle music... I love to dance to that stuff... I even had my glow sticks with me... Wow I was so loving it on Friday... SOHO has 3 rooms, one room is for hip hop, another for 80's, freestyle and oldschool hiphop beat-boys, and upstairs where they have a live rock band... The first live rock band was awesome... The rest ... Eh didn't do it for me... I had so much fun bugging jenny and her friend... Mostly jenny was the one I was bugging all the time, trying to get her shy ass to dance and shake it with another guy... The only guy she did dance with was gay but hey at least its progress... I was every where that night jumping from one room to another... What a night Friday was... I must do that once again soon...

Today was a chill day... Didn't do much at all actually... Well I did but my day is usually the night time... I did go to the CANES game vs Duke... Boy did we sweep the floor with them... But besides that nothing much happened... I was supposed to go to I/O lounge with some one but she decided to be a punk about it and was all wishywashy about it so I was like fuck it... Also my backup plan was to chill with my boy Fred and a few peeps but that didn't go down so I decided to pimp out my myspace a bit... I think it came out good... Well its late and IM going to put my car away and sleep now I am getting tired...

LILMAN X

NO REMORSE FOR THE WORLD!!! >_<

Well what a fucking crazy ass night I had... Shit... If it got any worse I would be in jail for killing a nigga... I have woken up today in a I don't give a fuck mood... Last night started off with just the most simplest plans... Chill at my crib install a few Operating systems on my bud's laptop and eat and chill at my home girls house... Well bullshit... The night was twisted as hell.. It all started off with both of us in kinda a pissed mood because well I don't know it was just that kind of night... So the damm Operating system did not want to install at all, the damm laptop was being super stupid... I mean what the hell, nothing I did worked... Ok fine, well if that wasn't bad we decided to go get some eats and head on over to my home girls house to chill, oh and before that several people were assholes on the road driving... Let me not even get started about driving during the day, and my damm teacher was not in class, we had some dude filling in for him because he got hurt the day before... W/e, so we wanted BK... Ok fine... So we get in the car and go to BK... As we wait at BK we see some car get infront of me and honk and then we get inline because I was the one first before they tried to cut me off... So they get behind me... And if that wasn't bad the damm person taking the order was pusshy as shit... Telling me hello are you ready yet every damm moment... I mean hello when I am damm good and ready to give you my order I will tell you... So we sed fuck it and left... As we leave the parking lot the same car that was behind me gets in front of me and then to the right side of my car and they are like what the fuck is your attitude... My friend gets like, What the fuck is your problem! So the dude sitting in the passenger seat gets out of the car and is like comming to my car... So I was like well fuck this I don't feel like busting a niggas head or getting arrested, So I peel out and say fuck you and leave... The best part was there was a few cops just chilling not to far from were we were probably seein this and didn't do shit... Well on top of that when I get to my home girls house I had low blood sugar and I get super pissed off when that happends so I was in a rather foul mood... Oh she wasn't in too good of a mood either, I guess she was moody because of some other shit but damm don't fuck with me when I am pissed off... Well w/e a lot of other shit happened last night too and I just don't feel like going into details but damm what a fucked up night... Just shit that happened that shouldn't of... So I say no remorse For the world... >_<

LILMAN X

Sick twisted relationships with bad week of sadness and suckubes...

Well what a shit week... Every one I know that was in a relationship, is now currently single... Wtf... The moon has turned into the 4th cycle of the Jupiter phase with the cat screaming in pain because he got run over... I don't know what is wrong with the world but I seem to be info central... W/e looks like IM not the one involved in this crazy phase of the stars... Well I am going to write probably some time tomorrow about what I need to do this weekend... Lets say it involves a lot of drinking, girls and party's ... Yeah! Anyways... I am out like a light that was smashed by the bat of the broken heart... Death to relationships the Alex reaper says!

LILMAN X

Writing the relationships away... This is not a good week for couples or relationships... Its been awhile

Well last time I wrote was simple and about fixing my computer and some dream I kept having... Well since then shit has gotten super complicated for a few people or actually more than a few people... More like almost everyone I know... Lets start by I think Friday or sat night I think... I got a call from a friend of mine that her B/F broke up with her because something happened with his moms that also he didn't love her anymore and bla bla bla... Well I care dearly for this girl, I mean she knows she can come to me at anytime to cry on my shoulder... Well she sure did, I felt so bad for her I just wanted to take it all away if I could... I did my best and I guess she is ok now... I know IM going to keep her busy so she wont think about him, IM sure that wont be a problem since I do like to distract my friends with my wild party life I live... Another friend that is having a problem with their "Girl" had just called me last night telling me how they messed up and now they don't know what to do... I haven't a clue how to help out on this one but IM sure it should get interesting later on this week... Problems have just been jumping out at me for solutions ever since about Thursday... Wow, what madness... I don't know what it is that people come at me for advise, what makes me so important and "smart" at this than anyone else? I mean I have my own problems too, but I don't really have many people to ask how to solve them but I do it on my own most of the time, also I don't tell anyone usually about them or I might ask 1 or 2 people for advice, mostly about the small things... I wish I was on the other end with "Relationship" problems or something because that would actually mean I was in a relationship... W/E, maybe I am meant to stay single so I can keep giving this awesome advise as I am told... This week was definitely not a good week at all for couples, Also hasn't been my week with girls too but that's another story I rather not tell... School started today, a new term for me... I got super lucky and at the same time not... I only have one class this term until the middle of November and its twice a week only, but I rather have 2 hard classes so I can get them out of the way... I feel as IM just doing the same thing over and over... Going to school, hanging out or a party or staying home... I think I need to add something else to my life, I don't know what but something is missing... I must clean up so I can find this missing part of the puzzle... Lets see have I left out anything... Talked about me being the psychologist, talked about school... umm... No I don't think so... I mean the only thing I do want to mention is I do miss a few people I haven't hung out with in a wile... I miss hanging out with colleen its been for ever since I've chilled with her... I also miss hanging out with jaws and Kevin, been forever since I hanged out with them too... Oh and I really miss hanging out with Gaby, I really miss her a lot. I know she is super busy with school and I don't want to disturb her with that because I know its super important for her, so IM laying way super low... I also miss hanging out in her house and talking to her dad, that's about the coolest Dad I have ever met in a long time, me and him could talk anything from computers to cars... Dads normally don't like me or just look at me funny because IM hanging out with there little girl but he loves hanging out with me and same goes for me, I also miss her mom, she is super sweet I love her fokes. Well its about 10:30 P.M. and my body hurts because I was stupid and forgot to get my stupid immunity shot for the last 4 days and I got it yesterday, so I am paying for it today... IM going to take a hot hot shower and grab something to munch on and toss a DVD or watch TV until I fall asleep... I have a lot of stuff to do 2marrow... I also must Finish fixing my PC so I can have my badass machine running once more...

LILMAN X

Mr fix it... Board on the rift... Music keeps playing...

So today I decided I was going to fix my stupid PC... Well damm the people at tiger... I got a 250GB hard drive... A Seagate too, and the fuking thing is dead... I tried every configuration I know and the stupid thing wont display... So its dead.. I can't believe my stupid luck... Damm this stupid idea of mines... W/e first thing 2marrow IM going to tiger and telling them a few things that I have in mind... Stupid people, why sell broken crap... Besides that I didn't do much today... I hit the mall with Luis because I was in my "Metro" mode and I felt like window shopping and I picked out some kick ass stuff... Some Prep because I want to start dressing prep once more and some rocker stuff too... IM kinda in between both so I don't know in which direction I should go... Oh October fest... How could I forget... Wow, What an awesome time I had... German Beer rules... Let me tell you, beer from the U.S. sucks ass, its like dirty water with stuff in it... Heineken, for get that crap, if you tell a German about that drink they will look at you like a fool... The beer that I had was awesome... And wow did I drink... I was happy I can tell you... Next time all I have to say is the Tank is coming home with me... Its been a calm day, nothing crazy or out of the ordinary happened... Well maybe one thing, every time I hear Dream Girl by Dave Matthews Band, I talk to a girl, or some one I have my "eye" on or something to that degree... I swear if I end up dreaming tonight... I just blame Julia Roberts and DMB and all the beautiful girls I know in life... Dammit get out of my head and stop messing with me... LOL ... J/K... Yeah lets just say this weekend the hunt is a foot! Onward Jim.. The Fox is getting away! Hopefully 2marrows event, I will be "happy" once more, just the day after that sucks, damm hangovers... Well I better go to bed if I am going to get up and do everything I have planed 2marrow...

LILMAN X

One part battery acid mixed with the books are fun...

Well let me tell you, I feel like my Brain is on something... Studying for my finals is not easy... I feel like I took some battery acid and put it inside my brain and just mixed it up with some stuff... Yeah headache for sure, body aches hellz yeah... Oh am I stressed... Fuk yeah I am... I must De-stress after Thursday because damm... I have been studying and making sure I know my shit so I can pass my finals... Thank god I have it super easy next term... This weekend... If I remember it I will be disappointed... I am going to, Drink like a mad man, Dance with the finest girls I can possibly find and just make sure its one big party... Because if I study this hard I have to party harder... Maybe I will get lucky too ... LOL J/k Naw I better be good or people are going to call me and be like what's this I was reading on your blogg.. W/e like anyone reads this... Well actually I get a lot of hits so who knows... Hey you don't like my party attitude... Join me, IM sure you'll just change your mind... Get you all crunked up and stuff... LOL ... Anyways now IM going to shower and study until about 4 A.M. or 5 then nap for like 2 hrs then school... Wish me luck and see if I can still write after IM done with finals >_<

LILMANX (On Book Acid)

He Who comes second comes last...

Well its the beginning of the week... Monday... Yay.. (yeah right)... Today I got my final review for Vincent security class and w/e I just have to cram it 2marrow and I will pass the final with no problem... 2marrow I get my review for Leo's class... I am not looking forward to that for sure... I know Leo and he is going to make it super, super hard... So that's going to kill me.. Eh... w/e I will pass it... Just do what I always do... Turn the cell off put up and awaymessige like leave me alone and I wont be bothered so I can cram my brain until I cant think anymore... No problem... >_< ... I swear i can never win... always second to last... I found out today our stupid school was not doing the ordering the books over the internet... Ok fine no problem they will provide us with the books... Well i gather my schedual for next term, F.Y.I. I only have one class monday's and wendsdays... So w/e I walk all the way to the other end of campus wich is far so i get there and found out they dont have the stupid book... I was like hello my class starts next monday, would you like me to pull the book out of my ass? So w/e the lady explains since the online thing didnt go they had to bring all the books and bla bla bla.. Well why the hell are all the books there except mine? WTF? i dont get it... So she told me we orderd them... A.K.A. next week sometime? W/e fuk them man for real... Also, What is it with girls lately... Every girl i know, and thats alot, is like treating me like second to none... i mean ok i dont ask for number 1 but shit... Remember me besides when you need to 1. talk about somthing to do with another guy... 2. Talk about how much your life sucks 3. talk about your love life 4. last but not least call me for a party or to see if i can entertain you... What the hell am i a phycologest and a party mixed with a personal entertainer? Common... Good greef... W/e im just sick of second to nothing, its like i try for number 1 but i get number 2... or if not last... good greef... monday, who knows whats next?

LILMAN X >_<

bu ba baaaddd..... >_<

Well so last night was super fun... After lollipop everyone knows IM always up for party time, so it was me Fred and 2 girls... So we met up at TU TU Tango, had some drinks then over to fat Tuesday's... More drinks and dancing... It was 1$ buds so I was a happy man... After that me and Fred hit the beach to check out a few places I was interested in checking out so that lasted till about 4:30 am... After that I slept for oh an hr or so got up had something to eat... Study for a test I had today and then got home and had a long long nap... Didn't do anything tonight because IM way too tired and now IM going to bed because I am sleeping in 2marrow... I feel extremely mischievous this weekend... soo who knows... Catch ya on the flip side... >_<

Llilman x

Were am I going but why is it all the same...

Well what did I do today... IM sore as hell but I do know the shutters are staying up.... NO way in hell I am taking them down if another hurricane is comings... I don't think this crap is over yet so w/e they are staying at least the ones that are clear the rest w/e ok I will take them down its just 3 windows... But no way... My arms, legs and back hurt like hell, and with no girl to give me a massage or say its ok fuk that even more... Well today I was thinking about how things change but they some how always stay the same... kinda like my life repeats its self or is in a loop of random but still some how its the same cycle .... w/e just wired things that are going on and I have to figure out... Some times I just want to pack up move out of Miami and maybe things will change but who knows... The way I see things they follow me or just stay the same, no matter how hard I try to change them or get out of the loop... This weekend IM going to do something that will get me out of the loop or keep me in them... Screw this IM tired of it... I need change or stability one of the above... But first before that party drink and be happy so w/e toss it to the wind and say screw it... IM taking 2 advil for my body aches and going to bed... Good night world of loopness...

LILMAN X

Ehh... My Head Hurts... Relaxed day...

Well today, didn't do jack... Too tired to do anything actually. I got home late last night from a privet party... Had a few drinks, watched a movie ect... I had a grate time... I think I will do this more often, its a good way to relax, even if they live super far away but hey what can I do about it... I think its worth the trip... Well I have a headache today, don't know if its from all the alcohol because I usually get them if I drink a bit too much, but I don't think I did... I mean I didn't even get tipsy or anything... Eh w/e... Fuk it I know IM not supposed to drink but w/e I don't care at the moment, I am in a eminem mood... (his song, I just don't give a Fu*k) because I am going to live it up this month and the next... After that I will be good... I miss my bad self, its been dormant too long... That side needs to come out and play some... >_< well im going to shower and sleep, even if its only 10pm

LILMAN X

TGIF... Who cares I worked my butt off...

Well so today is Friday or was actually now... I stayed home tonight to fix Luis's computer and also to fix mines... Well I got his all done the only problem now is I have to do my own PC... As many of you know I love my PC but since the hard drive crashed I haven't used it... So I just left it there in a corner to collect dust like a dead insect after its killed by poison... Well I have to get it up and running so my bad ass PC can be up and running once more 24/7 or close to it... Actually I did sorta work on it, well no I lie... I cleaned the "computer room" were I keep all my spare parts and other computer stuff... I found out I have a lot of parts... But the only problem is they are old... But hey its still good stuff... I say why trash working parts... Keep them you never know when you will need them... So today was not much stuff but wow... I am super tired from organizing that stuff... I wonder what IM going to do 2marrow... I want to go out or something... Maybe I will call some people up so I can party... Dammit I will go out and do something, I mean I just cant stay home all weekend working on my PC... Well I can, but I have done that way too many times... I am no longer a nerd... IM a nerd with a wild side... LOL ... Well IM going to finish up and maybe start on my PC... I might be up late... And lollipop 2marrow ... Maybe...

LILMAN X

Blink 182 - I miss you (for my PC)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want
where you can always find me
we'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

What to do... What to do... Weekend is almost here

Well its another Thursday night... This time I didn't go out at all... Just came home and turned on the T.V. and watched E.R. It was the final episode were carter leaves and all that drama happends and stuff... I don't like the show with out him but who knows probably it will be the last season of the show IM sure... I mean common no originals left in the show so it must end... Today was fun... Class and some stuff I took care of... A lot of things have changed in the north west (were I get my PC parts from) but its still a cool place... Went to lollipop and had fun doing my dj thing... I saw Gaby tonight... Poor gaby, I mean she's not stressed but still I feel bad she's studying so so much... She trys so hard... I hope she will pass with flying colors... And soon too I miss spending time with her, but she has to do that school thing so she can get into med school and be a grate doc so she can be my under study and I can fully teach her everything I know about how to be a doctor and not just a doctor who just takes care of the sickness but who takes care of the humanbean... Very much different kind of doctors out there... Like I always say... You can treat an aliment but first treat the person before... Well hopefully soon I will get to hang with her... Although I think I spend the most time lately taking to her than any of her friends so I feel privileged... Well its late... Time for bed... Maybe... Weekend ... AKA PARTY!

LILMAN X

Sharper than sharp... Watch out I will make ya bleed... holla

Ok I don't know what is up with that subject line but I have been making shit up like that all day long... Like saying: watch out now because if you look at me your shades will shatter... LOL, ok so I am in a weird mood... A good mood I guess you could say... I do feel better, maybe what I needed was a good rest and relaxing... Well I did relax, more than I usually do, so w/e... Chilled out to the max I am, so here I go to the bathroom to relax to the max... LOL... Ok so I am really out of no were in a good mood... Something good must happen eventually... Because why would I be going insane in the membrane... LOL... Ok for real, I did some home work, oh and I talked to roxy today... Been a wile since we have chatted.. It was good talking to her... She's kinda like my guide to my problems, she sets me str8 most of the time... Anyways... Like I sed before, I must run to the room to relax to the max and chillaxs until the candle wax is gone to the end of the buring wick, so just like that im out like a flash... PEACE >_<

LILMAN X

I Feel like crap, Checked out, what's going on?

Well today I just felt like shit in class... I woke up super late to leo's class and when I got there I just felt like being in bed... I don't know what the hell is wrong with me... Something but I don't know what... Usually IM better at self-diagnosis than the small minded doctors I know, except for the one's who know my case; well but this time me and them both are stuck on what's wrong with me... Odd... I know I feel drained... So I had my blood count checked out today... Its fine a bit low but nothing I can't handle or need to go to the hospital for... So maybe its the cold that is comming back? I know I have an infection somewhere because my blood count is all over the place... Where I have no clue... I think what I should do 2marrow is stay home and relax... Maybe since I am stressed and I feel like crap and maybe everything has come all at once its got me down... Maybe a good day of relaxing and doing everything I have to do to take care of my self 100% will make me feel better... I mean I cant take care of my self to 100% every day... I have to live and do stuff and its impossible to do everything and take care of my self 100%, I figure 90% is fine... I guess that 10% adds up slowly and catches my ass in the end... W/e... On another note... I talked to almost everyone by now... Found out peeps were just busy doing stuff and taking care of things... The only one I haven't talked to (at least on the phone) is gaby... I would tell you that I don't miss her voice or I don't miss hanging out with her, but we both know I would be lieing out of my ass... Right? I know she is super busy with school so I just want let her bee and when shies not busy I know she will call me.. Or at least I hope she would... I have been calling her and chilling with her a lot lately (which I love) but I have to let her be and she had to do her thing... Compared to what I do every day shies super busy, I live it busy too but not as much... More like busy with other things besides school... School is cake for me, Computers; its my thing and I could teach the class if I wanted to... Actually sometimes I do correct the teachers but they actually like that sometimes because we get into the "correct" ways to do things... Maybe this weekend comming up I might ask her to do something... ( hope she reads this )... Well people.. I don't know who reads this stuff but I just write... I think IM going to take a shower and watch something on T.V. until I fall asleep... Probably not until late if I know my self...

LILMAN X

Another day...

Well... Lets see, what can I say about today... First of all I didn't feel like getting out of bed this morning... IM not sure why... I have a lot of lack of energy lately, not sure why, actually I lie... I have an idea why the thing is I am just avoiding it... Avoiding the inevitable but w/e... Besides that nothing has happened today, just another day for me... Boring and uneventful... I hope 2marrow is more exciting because I just hate days with nothing happening... No one called me, I spoke to no one, did nothing... W/e Its 9:30 going to bed...

LILMAN X

Where is everyone>? Hellloooo... Anyone out there?

Well today was a quiet day I guess you could say... I spoke to no one, No one called me... I wonder if people moved to another plant or something... I usually get calls from people every day to say hi or what's up or how are you, but today was just like if everyone was gone or missing... The only one who showed up was Luis... Luis came over today and chilled at my house until about 9... I showed him the titanic kariokie place... He liked it but the odd part was none of my friends were there.... No javi, no pilar, mari, Lucy even that Goth dude... Odd... The only thing that did happen that was awesome was I saw this girl who I haven't seen in years... Her name is Veronica, wow I was taken back... At first I felt super bad about it because I couldn't put the face to the name... I knew that I met her before somewhere because I never forget a face but I couldn't remember her name or were exactly I met her... It took me a wile but as soon as I remembered I was like OMG... I admit I screwed up, she was an awesome friend and things just got weird between us... My problem was I didn't know what I wanted at that moment and I was kinda still searching for my self in what I wanted and stuff but, now is when I have my shit straight... I gave her my Myspace name and my phone number so I hope she calls... I would love to have her as my friend once more... At least this time I wont screw up and I know who my true friends are after the cutting of the evil and bad influences in my life... I do have to admit, I did cut a lot of bad out even if I didn't realize it until I was in bad waters... Now I just have people I can trust and good friends... Well if anyone is out there, please contact me to at least know the outside world is still alive... Kinda makes me sad in a way no one called me or at least told me hi today... W/e guess people were busy...

LILMAN X

Home Base Relaxing

So today was a good day... Relaxing I could say, I didn't go anywhere or do much... I did do radio lollipop this morning but only because I knew a few people were going to be out and I was going to help out my home girl pillar... So that was chill and after that I saw Dio for a few, haven't seen him in a wile and chilled at alien's house for a bit... That was about it... It did rain for a wile here but it was the calm rain that just hits your window with a soft noise on the roof as it falls down onto the ground... A noise I do enjoy some times when IM in my calm moods... I love that sound of water with just a hint of lightning with out the thunder noise and violence in it... Just a sweet game of the Angles playing in the clouds that sets off some lights as the earth Refreshes its self... Well I think IM going to finish here and get something sweet to eat before I go to bed and toss on a Anime and watch it and sleep... Maybe I wont set the alarm 2marrow, just get up when I get up... I leave you with some lyrics... Oh and check out the Video to the right, its awesome... Let me know if you cant see it

LILMAN X


(Sarah McLachlan - Angel)

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe; in this sweet madness
oh This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Two-thousand eight hundred and eighty minutes later... >_<

Well its today and I still haven't slept at all... I don't know how I have done this but w/e I did... Maybe it was all the caffeine in me or just the hype that kept me up all this time but I didn't sleep at all last night... After I wrote I was like well I could sleep for 2 hrs or so but I figured screw it... Why bother... So I just got something to eat and chilled in bed watching TV until I pretended to get up, So my parents wont be pissed that I didn't sleep at all, took a shower and got my stuff for school together and bounced... I got to school early today... So I did my bit of studying done, so that's out of the way until Sunday I still have a paper to write and some worksheet on converting Hex into binary and bla bla bla... So tonight I wanted to go out so bad... But no one wanted to go out... What losers... I wish I would of gone out anywhere... I hate staying home, especially when I haven't slept and IM delirious and hyper... That's the best time to do stuff because its like your floating and don't feel a thing, until the next day... Besides that it was a calm day, took care of a few things here and there... So w/e I think that's about it... Since I am home its like 10:30 I think IM just going to go to bed or chill there for a bit until my body says.. Sleep and I crash and fall asleep with out notice... This happends when you don't sleep for Two-thousand eight hundred and eighty minutes ( Figure it out)... Plans for the weekend... Don't know up in the Air I guess ... Well IM taking my butt to the shower and bed... But not before I put away the bat-mobile in the bat-cave...

LILMAN X (delirious) >_<